Last Day Thoughts

Well, it's all done. I'm sitting here in (was used to be) my classroom at the seminary, listening to Of Monsters and Men, looking at empty desks, and typing. I've cleaned up all the things I put around the room, thrown away all the papers no one needs anymore. I just need to go do the same to my office upstairs and I'll all be done and ready to give back my keys. It's a sad feeling, but I'm not really sad. (if that made sense...) I've loved working here and with all the other teachers and students. I almost feel like LHS is my school after 2 student teaching jobs here. However- honestly, I've been pretty sure I'd only do one semester. (there was a moment there I was afraid I wouldn't even get to finish out the semester...) So it's not really surprising, and I've had a very long time to come to grips with it. I was kinda hoping for a while there that I'd get to do the whole year, but this is probably for the best. I'm glad I got this chance though. It's funny, the thing that was always the hardest was when I would tell people I was teaching seminary they would almost always say such nice things about how lucky the kids were, how good I was going to do, how they're so glad because they always need more female seminary teachers... But as they were saying these things I knew in my heart it wasn't going to work out. It's hard disappointing people.  It's hard to not be a good at something as everyone thinks you will be, everyone including yourself. But, as I said, I'm glad I did it. I've learned a lot and hopefully I was able to help a few kids along the way understand the scriptures better.

So, now the question- what's next. I only wish I knew. I applied for grad school at USU at the urging of a professor I knew during my undergrad time. It's all done and "Ready for Review", and just sitting there since Tuesday. How many other applications for this semester can they have to look at? Really? I mean, school started monday? I doubt there are very many people wanting to start late... So what that means is I don't know what I'm doing Monday. I guess that just means the opportunities are limitless! There's a line from a song I really like that says "You can't get to where you're going till you say goodbye to where you've been" So- Goodbye where I am! Future- Here I come. I don't know exactly what's in store but like Marriner (my bro-in-law) said, maybe there's a reason for all of my not settling into a job and everything yet. Time will tell. Ooh, maybe it will bring a lot of exciting changes. That would be fun...